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I just had a mail conversation with our Alexei, and writing to him, I figured I am presently in a state where I don't need magic. Neither am I a friend of the sports approach presently. I can not tell if this state will go on forever, but for whatever happens I have my collection of techniques. This seems like kind of a goal of both philosophical and magical development. I remember that story of this Zen Master who gave up using the I Ching after decades because he had no need for it anymore. I don't guarantee I will never touch magic again. I don't know what the future might bring. Have you ever wondered about that? Maybe I can assist some who are still on the path, maybe I can't, maybe no one will let me. While for all the years this is basically what you long for, I just least expected it to happen in some way. I repeat, I can't tell if it is forever. And it is different from what I imagined a perfect life to be in the past. Mysteriously enough, I will continue to be around here.